Am I a bad person?

This is one of my biggest secrets:

Well now I'm a senior

When I said no, I meant it

Sometimes you make me feel like a somebody

Music reminds me of you

Things you used to say to me:

"I love the way I do crazy things to get your attention just to know you care about me"

For some reason I decided to tell you

Best feeling ever

"Did I scare them away?"

Is there always someone for everyone?

Are the possiblities really endless?

What I want my mother to say:

I should stop thinking about you

If we ever get back together...

Maybe I'm not as religious as I thought

Even though I accepted Christ as my savior, I still don't feel like I can surrender all my worries to God. I still worry and I don't feel like I can just let that go. how can I just trust someone with everything and have faith that I'll be ok? I'm not ok.

When will I have this realization?

I hate that you never followed me

That's all I need, just one more chance. Just one more night with you. Oh gosh...I sound like an addict...and maybe I am. Just one more fix and I'll be fine. I could quit whenever I wanted...I just don't want to.

Life seems to be getting harder

Where am I supposed to go?

I trusted you with my secrets

Please don't make me regret it

I still think about you

here

I can be cute too

What if...

T.T

I still tear up about that sometimes

Why did I make this blog?

I don't think I could ever talk about this stuff out loud. I'd either cry or get embarrassed or stutter or just not even bring it up. But I want you to understand. If you're reading this then I must trust you a lot...cuz these are things that I try to keep hidden about myself

Some say I'm crazy

Why so serious?

I really wasn't ever a butcher :) hahaha

Welllll it's not a mental illness

But it isn't fair of me to bring kids into the world knowing that I won't be able to be there to care for them for much longer...

When do I get to this point?